Not going so well

My diet has slumped almost into the worst state it's ever been, and everything is affected adversely as a result. It was all going OK until I started working again, and I got more tired. Straight away it was really difficult to fit the swimming in, and I've only managed a couple of session in the past 2 months. I was also still doing my TAFE course and accompanying prac/volunteering sessions, so was actually trying to work more hours than I am physically capable of.

But I have to stop the rot. I can't sleep tonight (it's 1.55am) because I feel physically ill from how much I've eaten, and from what I have eaten (pizza and icecream, mostly because I was too lazy/busy being asleep to do any grocery shopping/cooking). I'm annoyed with myself for being so undisciplined, and thinking about ways to get the exercise and good food back again.

A couple of weeks ago a did a graph of my weighloss from the time that I started weighing myself in January, and although the overall trend is downwards, there is also a lot of upward movement in between the drops. I'm on another upward trend at the moment, and I really don't want to be. I need to get a hold of myself again, and not only get back to losing weight again, but get back to how good it felt to be eating well, and being more active and healthy.

I've also been spending the last couple of weekends in an exhausted heap, not going out, not doing much at all, other watching telly, playing on facebook, sleeping and ordering in pizza so I don't have to leave the house to buy groceries. Not good.

Especially as I know that if I was doing better with my diet and exercise, I'd have the energy to get out and about and do things. Fun things!

D'oh.

Tomorrow is another day, and I've just decided that I might take Monday off work, so that I can set myself up properly again for swimming before work, and taking lunches and snacks in, instead of buying stuff from the vending machine or cafe. As well as my lifestyle disintegrating, so has my budget. I might be earning money at the moment (which is still a novelty), but it's not going to last, and I'll be a student again in a couple of months. I need to be saving everything I can, not spending ridiculous amounts on buying lunches and getting pizza delivered.

I'm such an idiot.

But, as I say, I can start over tomorrow. And I will. I will.